Hey fellas!

Did you miss this?

It’s been a while since I’ve written down something substantial in here. 

I am amidst working. And for those of you who do not know, I’m a freelancer. But these thoughts just kept popping in my head and I know I had to take some time to write them down and dump them in here. Otherwise, I’d probably not be able to focus.

I see people here and there who have so much potential pass away at such a young age. And I have then realized how all the little decisions we make on a daily basis can take a toll on us and our well-beings.

A stick of cigarette smoked, a shot of alcohol consumed, minutes of exercise executed, choosing healthier food options, giving the people around you more attention than you have ever done so, being kinder, letting go of the things that drag you down, opting to understand better, surrounding yourself with the people who help keep your sanity, and whatever else you could think of.

Any decision you make – ANY – no matter how little, will have a great effect on you in the long run.

I’m looking at myself in the mirror as I type along, and saw all the decisions I made in the past manifesting right in front of me and radiating its effects up until today.

A flabby body, dark undereyes, dry skin, stressed face, an unstable mental health that fluctuates every now and then from being very hyped and motivated to being depressive, my small attention span, wrecked body clock and sleeping patterns – all these had to do with all the little decisions I made every day since I had the capacity to decide for myself.

SO I’VE LEARNED TO CHOOSE MY POISON.

I am not perfect. I am not going to be. And I do not have any plans to attain so.

All I know is that for now, I am trying to make a conscious effort to do good each day – to myself, to the people around me, and to those whom I love.

I know, one day it will do wonders, and I’ll be able to see a better result as I look back into this day when I decided to be more in tune of my thoughts, my feelings, and everything that I let in, and consume me.

*breathes in*

*exhales*

Life is good – with all its ups and downs. Isn’t it?

Fluttering by,

Fae