I remember telling you all in one blog that I am going to be out of reach no more.
Along with that came opening my doors in every nooks and crannies available – Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, Kakao Talk, Line – name it. I probably have it.
And guess what?
It destroyed me.
Perhaps it is because I still have yet to grasp and learn to take control of everything that came rushing in as soon as I opened my doors.
Little did I know that the little world I slowly built can easily be crumbled down if you let the wrong people in.
It can take a toll on you.
Sometimes, even if your only ulterior motive is to just be in a place of wanting to help, it can also suck up all the positivity in you.
And I am not saying everybody was.
I am probably just not as used to all the attention I am getting that it burnt me out.
I’d rather be in my little world again, really. It’s easier that way.
Also, it’s been harder to focus on the things I badly wanted to achieve. There wasn’t much improvement in any of my plans yet – and I am very disappointed with myself about that.
So I’d like to reflect on all the aspects of my life commencing today. I’d like to keep myself away from the world as much as I can – yet again.
I’d like to be in peace – focus more on the things and the people who matter, with myself being the top priority.
I deleted all my social media apps on my phone. They’re still there – afloat. I can still receive any of your messages, just that I wouldn’t be able to see them right away.
I’d probably check them from time to time though, but very rarely at that. So do let me know if you’d like to still keep connected in any way.
And we’ll see from there.
But for now – out of sight, out of mind.
If there’s ever anything urgent you need to contact me about – my mobile number will be your best bet.
And I do not have any plans of coming back until I have made some changes.
I won’t keep this long. I am overly stressed. My chest is tight. I couldn’t breathe. My head is heavy.